What happens next??
Oh my gosh, seriously, I don't know. I have two weeks to figure it out. 14 days. I'm feeling like I need to engage "Project 14" so that I can brainstorm ideas, create a vision and a plan and then implement it. LOL
I could just keep doing what I'm doing. I could do something similar. I could do something more challenging - I mean, that was kind of the point for this. To challenge myself to use my camera more often - to get out of automatic mode and work on taking pictures in manual mode, where you have a little more control over the settings.
Or I could do something completely different. But what??
Completely different can be scary. What if it doesn't turn out to be a good idea? What if it just plain sucks? What if I do it all wrong? What if no on likes it? What if no one reads it?
These are the voices in my head. And they can be so loud - so hard to ignore. SO ANNOYING! So I yell, "SHUT UP!" (I think this may the only time my mom would forgive me for saying that) and hope that because that is generally startling, that those voices will pipe down for once.
And I don't think that it's necessarily that those voices are mean or malicious. They just want to keep me safe. They want to keep me from experiencing failure, rejection, disappointment, and frustration. Things that I don't really enjoy feeling. And what better way to do that than to have me just stay right where I am, in my comfort zone, doing everything the way I've always done it (and with the corresponding results). So if the voices can stop me from experiencing all those seemingly negative feelings, they have so much less work to do. And they like it that way because they are LAZY.
I think back to the last few times I've tried something new and I was scared and it didn't go exactly the way I planned. I had to talk myself off the ledge. The voices in my head had to reassure me that it was going to be okay, that the world wasn't going to end because of this, that no one was going to think less of me. That is SO MUCH WORK for them.
And they would just rather be tuned out watching Youtube videos like this one: Fenton the dog!
And yesterday, at the Tower Hill Stables Schooling Show, these awesome girls from Escapar Farm pushed beyond any scary thoughts about being on large horses and jumping over fences.
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| Hannah and Ruby |
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| Emma and Savannah |
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| Maggie and Indie |
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| Halsey and Riley |
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| Lexi and Riley |
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| Lauren and Rango |
Our girls did an amazing job at the show this weekend. And while observing other riders and trainers, I think A LOT of that has to do with our trainer, Tasha. She is encouraging; offering reminders (and sometimes multiple reminders) to the girls in a direct way, but without insulting them, belittling them, or making them feel bad. And I think that Tasha does a great job of pushing them out of their comfort zone (like asking Emma to participate in a more challenging event that she wasn't planning to - where she ended up winning first place!) and feeling confident that they can handle it.
P.S. Georgia, I'm so sorry I didn't get any pictures of you on Savannah this time! I promise to next time! :)
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